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I'm back xD and I actually feel ok at the moment and its been 6 whole weeks since I last cut myself things aren't that bad at the moment (I still don't use punctuation sorry haha) I'm sitting on my bed in a really tidy room writing chemistry revision notes, my mum thinks I've been kidnapped by aliens LOL she's always telling me to sort my life out and as soon as I do something I'm meant to do everyone goes into shock grrrr I can't win :P I'm going to start writing in this more often but not on the kindle because the keyboard is too annoying I've finally got an idea in my head of what I want to do when I grow up (yes I am nearly 18 years old but I'm still about a zillion miles from being a sensible adult even though I finish sixth form in the summer, scary!!) My dad says it's called civil engineering it's like designing bridges and stuff it would make me think but still be interesting cause I get bored so easily we went to this careers thing and I was going round every stall looking for ideas, and the company I was looking at do apprenticeships yay I still refuse to go to uni though whatever my teachers think of my decision its my life not theirs and I don't think I could cope 1 or 2 happy days does not mean my life is better, there's still a loooong way to go on that haha I've typed loads already there's loads of fireworks outside and theyre so loud but i can't see them I'm trying to catch up on all my textiles work too I'm determined to meet every deadline this year and show everyone that I did learn something from all my mistakes last year haha it was so bad at the end of June I'm so glad half of its over and didn't just give up then like I wanted to, because I knew it would be one of those decisions I'd regret when I'm older... I'm gonna go and make myself a giant mug of coffee now, byeeee (sorry I'm way hyper I've had too many jammy teacake things :P) xxx